My only public psoriasis pity party

I'm so tired of it and I just need to vent about it.....just once (maybe).

I've suffered with this crap called psoriasis for almost 28 years. Some years worse than others, but always a problem with it somewhere on my body.

I'm tired of the embarrassement of having to hide my hands when I have to get change, write a check, shake hands, or do something where my hands have to be visible.

I'm tired of always having to either wear plastic gloves or watch to make sure that my hands aren't cracking and bleeding.

I'm tired of my fat sausage fingers that are always swollen and won't work anymore because of the psoriatic arthritis. I'm tired of having to look at these "claws" in the morning that won't open up because they are stiff.

I'm tired of all the skin I leave behind. It's a constant flaking, itching, peeling mess.

I'm tired of the cracks and mess on the bottom of my feet. I'm tired of hobbling along because they hurt so bad and there are times that I can barely walk on them because they are so cracked and dry.

I hate that I am not able to enjoy the feminine luxury of getting a manicure or a pedicure. Who in the world would want to touch this nasty mess?

I hate this disease. I hate that I have had to have it all these years and that we haven't found anything that can stop it.

Why did I have to be stuck with this?

Okay....I'm done now.