Improving

Things are much better today. 

Thankfully, because yesterday was just plain horrible.

You have those days.  You know......the ones where everything just crashes down on you.  You just have to let it crash, release it all, and then move on.

Yesterday was my cleansing day.

I've moved on.

Thankfully.

It's my pity party and no you're not invited

No life is not great.....in fact it sucks.

But I'm the one that it supposed to keep it all together.  To keep everyone organized and on-track.  The one who is supposed to continually perpetuate the idea that everything is great. 

Well guess what?  I'm human and it's not great all the time and trying to make everyone believe it all the time is emotionally taxing.  So today I broke down and it's my pity party.

Maybe if I put all the bottled up things inside me down on "paper", I can relieve some of this pressure.

First of all, don't call me and don't try to talk to me about it.  I don't want to talk.  I just want to cry and get it all out of me. 

I am just so tired of trying to be perfect all the time.  My house is a disaster.  My body is a disaster.  Our staff is a disaster.  And lately everything I try to do perfectly comes out like a disaster.  No matter how much I look at stuff -- it seems like there's something wrong with it.  There is NO TIME to do the important stuff that we need to get done.  Every day is filled up with trying to get the most important stuff done.

There is too much to do ALWAYS.  There is never any free time.  We get up early and go to bed late and try to cram in as much stuff as we possibly can into 24 hours. 

I've lost myself.  I have no identity anymore.  I'm just the Pizza Zone back up person.  The person that always has to sit on pins and needles waiting for that phone call to come in and cover because some idiot can't do their job correctly or because someone decided that they wanted a day off....so to hell with Pizza Zone.  We have no life........we are the slaves of our employees, our business, and our customers.  What little tiny morsel that might be left at the end of the day is ours.

So if this sounds like a pity party......well it is.  And I sure as heck deserve one.  There's so many things that I need and want to get done......but NOPE -- Pizza Zone comes first.  Pizza Zone always comes first.

But what about me?  I have needs too!

P.S.  This blog no way reflects what my husband is doing.  He has a very full plate and no time whatsoever.  In fact, if he was a girl -- he'd probably sit down and cry with me all day today too!  Oh wait.....there's no time to sit and feel sorry for ourselves......we have work to do!

Banks, quiet moments, and cleverness

Thank goodness that I can take a few minutes when I'm at the drive thru at the banks (lucky me.....I go to two different ones each day) to find a moment of peace and quiet and read.

Also, thanks goodness that they built Mustang steering wills that also work as a Kindle holder!  Yipee.....hands-free reading!

He promises me........

...that things will get better soon.
...that we will have a day off in the next couple of weeks or so.
...that things are going to be great.
...that he will love me forever, because we are soul mates.
He's probably right.
But why is it taking so long?
We are working the hardest we've ever worked in our life. We hardly see each other and when we do....it's at the end of a long day and we both can barely stay awake.
But, he's right. It will get better soon -- because we have each other.
And because we ARE soul mates!

Short and Sweet

“It is good to have an end to journey toward;
but it is the journey that matters, in the end.”

― Ernest Hemingway

Short, Sweet, and oh so true. My guiding words for today!

It's a busy little life

Unfortunately with all the things that are going on in my life right now.....blogging is having to take a backseat. Work is so totally demanding right now. I come home and night and want to cry because I am so tired. I mean the tired that just gets into your soul. Crying won't help. Whining about it won't help either. There may be some relief on the horizon....but only time will tell. Until then, I will hold my head up and keep plodding along. There has got to be some better days ahead!

The piles are getting out of hand

Woke up today and said "what do I need to get done today"

And the piles responded back:

Pile 1 jumped up and exclaimed "pick me....pick me. You really need to get these signs done so that they can get to the schools on time".



Pile 2 responded "oh you should pick me. This is a bunch of work you need to enter into Quickbooks so that you can do your reports on time".



Pile 3 cried "oh you must pick us. We've been sitting here the longest and there are so many little small things in here for you to do."



Pile 4 replied "girlfriend you better get started on me. There is no way you will be able to do payroll without getting my stuff done".



And lastly Pile 6 responded "pick me. I'm the one that you really want to work on anyways. It's been so long since you felt my fabric in your hand. Ditch those other piles and come spend a luxurious day with me".



Guess what pile I didn't get to work on?